its a good thing that you are "guarded" about taking medications but...medication may help you and it could be temporary until you are feeling better. ive taken them. im medication free now. sometimes i feel like i need to go back on them but...i am better than i used to be. they really do help. just try it....then later if you feel they are not helping you. stop. get some counseling and relax...you are going to be alright.