I'm 39, a stay at home mom (kids in school) and am finding myself increasingly lonely. I see my neighbors around but am friendless these days. I have friends that I speak to on the phone once or twice a month and email but they are so busy (work and kids) and when I invite them over are usually unavailable. I say a few words to other moms, neighbors, etc. I would like to just have someone to chat with and have a cup of tea with. Why is it so hard? Added to this problem is I have social anxiety disorder but I try so hard! I feel very awkward at times and wonder if maybe I am turning people off by my 'fear vibe". I feel desperately lonely and maybe they sense that too? Or maybe I'm too aloof? I fear rejection as well. I really miss having some social contact besides my DH. Can't afford therapy. Been there anyway. Any ideas to make friends? People seem so busy these days and already in their friend cliques. Thanks so much.