Someone out there help me, we had fights coz he is too close to his ex g/f who is a swinger(many sex partners), i was too scared for my life but this pissed him off leading to regular fights. His ex new about every single fight we had. He canceled a trip 4 days before we traveled and now i just found out that he already has a new g/f 3 weeks earlier than our trip was intended. Meanwhile he insists he is single but wont see me as he is just too busy. He calls me the love of his life and all nice names. Its better for me he is gone as he can be very aggressive (verbally), and was scared that could turn into physical, he uses xtc, marijuana, poppers, ghb on regular basis and i suspect he uses other things too. He is too confusing as he can be too nice and make me feel like a princess and later turn into a monster out of the blue.
My problem now is i have severe heart beats and am shaking. Am not on drugs but how can i deal with this pain. i feel like my heart will explode. Help!