Well, im 22 yrs old. When I was 6 yrs old, I had one of my testicles removed because of some health complications. As I aged, I was always curious about men, because they looked different down there. I was young and forgot that I had two before discovering this difference. Im overweight too.Now im really attracted to men, I necessarily think that im gay though because I dont like the thought of sex with men, i just like to look at them, almost as if I dont feel like i fit in and I just want to look like a nice, fit, normal "down there" male. Im so insecure about it that I feel like its messing with my hormones/attractions and i cant explain it, im very confused. I also dont have a very high voice, pueberty came on late and i didnt get alot of hair, I wonder if I dont product enough testoterone because im not very manly. I hate this so much, does anyone have any ideas... the doctors around here are quaks and im not going to one for it cause i dont have insurance. Im really confused.